Random Night

"A year ago I wasn't sure where I'd be, never knowing how I would change
Sometimes life forces that change and I've had to adjust a pretty good range
I've been in a different mindset and it's a little surreal
I watch myself as days go by and really I'm not sure how to feel
Honestly I'm not even sure if I've given myself proper time to heal
Every time I feel like I've taken one step forward, the light appears and I take two steps back
Sometimes it was hard to keep going, but I figured out that shits whack
I still can't say I've recovered, because I still find myself in my feels
There is always a way out, many ways I could make some deals
But if there's one thing I learned is that's just not who I am
Through the mistakes I've made I learn and then suddenly *BAM*
I wake up and realize everything I've done and can only look to a better tomorrow
Yet we said we'd see each other soon, but until then am I just in sorrow?
Do I sit here and hope nobody else finds us, wait on the day we can say Goodnight
Until I figure this out I'll just remain in wonder, don't know what this means but soon I'll have the destination in my sight
I'll always feel the same way, it was always you."

I'm not sure what brought this up, maybe it's making plans. Being someone I did not see myself as. So many new faces, possibilities, opportunities. I guess typing it out is one way to get this out. What is this adulting? It's realizing the mistakes you've made in the past, living with all the shit life throws at you, getting creative with how you escape the realities placed in front of you, and more importantly realizing who is actually there for you. I believe I've at the very least found those people that both help me and I in some way help them. I would do anything for those of you, quite literally anything.



I guess I just had one of those nights of thinking....