Burnt

i finally understand the lines 
checking in usually i’m feeling fines
so much to do, adhoc and high expectations 
hell my sleep now needs medications 
everything feels like a camera focusing in 
is this what one gets when they do the min
everything feels heavy, creating joy is easy but unproductive 
i continue but for my career it can be destructive 
where does the line sit? 
where you can enjoy life one way and your career still fit 
maybe i chose wrong 
that’s what you get when you force a kid to choose one 
i never got to explore my options because i chased the bag 
now i’m unsure, anxious, and life lagged 
where can a passion sustain life and still be fun 
the risks here are irreversible so i might be done 
do i have a drive or am i just in the passenger seat
letting something else come and take the heat 
i move forward knowing i can do more 
just looking for my shot, the time i know i can score 
or shoot it and hope for the best 
at the end of the day i just have to prove i’m better than the rest