i never knew what time would tell
but when it came to i fell
for dumb reasons, just trying to hold on to closed doors
hell i broke a heart just to try to get yours
i never knew depression could hit this hard
suicide and all isn’t the peak, i just keep guard
nobody knew since i was on the fence
so when it all broke down i suffered in silence
there’s so much to sit around and think about
i don’t feel like feeling, i’ll float without doubt
just not in the mood, let the drugs do what they do
escape, distract, pin me down, let me fake this too
i have my upbringings and smiles on the daily
just don’t know whats real or how i’ll be
get ready to let go, walls up, no remorse
can’t be blind sided by another trojan horse
i’m just done with all the bullshit
on edge, can’t afford another hit
