Less

 

Is it normal to feel like you deserve less 

Never knowing when things will crumb like a mess

Lifting up higher and higher 

Only to lose everything that I desire

Is that just regular fear when everything is going right

If things let go will things change if I put up the fight?

History tends to repeat itself 

But then people say things like we make our own history, or we’re in charge of the future, we lead our own destinys but how in control are we of actual things. If I lose my job it’s not like that’s what I chose, so then I build up again from remaining funds and what if the next one doesn’t work? In that case is it still me setting myself up for that or is it history repeating itself. Who knows, this kind of thinking is bad for my health

I guess good to be aware but this comes back a lot 

Wondering what’s going on and going day to day all robot 

Guess I’ll tuck in, let’s see what tomorrow brings 

Sounds like undertale, never played it but sounds like that type of game where days end and you’d see it on screen. Load it up, *ping

Yeah things have just been running in my mind. Sleeping like shit. And yeah just one of those days really. Where you feel like running and starting over but then why? Doesn’t make sense when you honestly have it good in life. Hmm, human minds are interesting.