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Are you a boy? Or are you a girl?
Hm? Wha…? You woke me up!
Will you check the clock for me?
What time is it? 
What? Morn 5 o’clock?
How many minutes?
Whoa! 30 min.?
MORN 5:30! I overslept!
Confusion seems to be the only thing I know 
Trying to start a new game just to find my flow
Is it in movement or what I call the written 
Hard choice like Rowlet or Litten 
But there is one choice to make, something that can let me be me
Maybe the right path is one I just can’t see 
Because the journey is where it comes from, its about trial and error
I move forward with only my style and the terror 
Of things that I just can’t keep a grasp on
Maybe one day I’ll be ready, the day I don’t stay up ‘til dawn 
Now I ramble:
Or maybe the right choice is to stay on the sidelines 
I’m not ready to lose it all again 
I’m tired of never being accepted
“I want to get to know you” 
“Oh so you don’t like ______ that’s understandable” 
“Why don’t you ever _____ for me” 
Why is it that I can accept a person for who they are 
But others have this expectation of me, that I never meet 
There’s reasons why I don’t think I’m enough 
And why I don’t seek this anymore 
It’s just too much 
Don’t mind the rambles
I just say this so I don’t end up in shambles 
I let my mind speak so I don’t hold it in 
I place myself face to face with the darkness within 
Shits weird and honestly don’t know myself anymore 
I used to be happy down to my core 
Now I’m here, sitting and waiting 
And hang out, gotta get to creating 
Do I miss you? My old life? The things I cherished in the past? 
Who knows, I guess nothing in life can last 

I guess I just needed an outlet. A lot of sleepless time just letting my mind go, and all my thoughts coming at me at once. When does life get better?